today was uber fun.. hehe.. i came to school around 11 because Pau said we were gonna hit the studios and rehearse and stuufs for the band.. well, it was not that great of a session but at least, we got to play and bond.. i love these guys.. xD right after, we stayed at UST... ehe.. for no reason, we stayed there.. haha.. it was so boring but fun.. lols... (sense?) dainne and i had tattoos! ehehe.. jUst henna oNes.. ehehehe. mine is a chinese character which means "angeL".. i dunno,, i just like the term.. dainne's is a butterfly.. she's so gay, isn't she but if not for that i would not lurve her.ehehehe.. cOnstant!!! xD
we went to coffee i.. the fun started there.. ehehe.. chart said we should just stay at dainne's pad.. lols.. "pad?!" anyhoo, there we drank.. ehehe.. soo nice.. i soo love smirnoff... i'm gonna marry smirnoff.. xD... dainne said i am already tipsy.. hahahaha...i am not, sorry. xD
i love this day.!! i wish everyday is like this.. hahaha.. i love everyone!! lols...
just take a peek.... click me right now to get transported.. thanks...
nothing much, nothing at all actually... i spent the whole day feeding off the exhaustion from the world... everyday is uber busy.. yes, i do NEED an inspiration right now.. the previous one swept me off my feet, undoubtedly. but as physics states : what comes up must come down. it's a whole lot of freaking process but it comes down to that... i guess it already came down after a while of being so high up there...
now even i came down to nowhere... i was thinking this morning during the mass. if i can move on, then probably i can find somebody else.. somebody else who is at least semi-the one, if there is such then suddenly came this panorama of the younger years.
haha, i don't want to be a pedophile.. and i'm guessing this didn't make any sense at all.i told ya, there's nothing much to tell...
* switch to tagalog *
tumawa lang ako nang araw na iyon. nagulat na lamang ako at nag-iba ang pananaw ko sa'yo. nag-iba dahil sa tuwing makikita kita, wala na ang kaba na dati-rati'y laging nananahan sa dibdib ko. marahil nga'y hindi na kita maaari pang magustuhang muli. nang una'y palagi na lamang ikaw ang laman ng utak ko. subalit ang puso ko'y sinaktan mo. simula noong araw na iyo'y natututo akong mag-isip. naisip kong labinlimang taon na akong nag-iisa. napangiti na lamang ako nang maisip kong kaya ko pala kahit papaano. may mga nakaalam tungkol sa naramdaman ko sa'yo. naramdaman din siguro nila ang sakit na naidulot ng pagkagusto ko sa'yo dahil sila na mismo ang nagpayo sa aking tumigil na ko sa kabaliwang iyon. ginawa ko at ngayo'y malaya na ako. malaya na ako sa'yo. minamalas na nga siguro ako. malaya na ako, ngunit sa iyo lang.
i got a freaking ipod!!!!!! i am so freaking ecstatic!!!!!!!!!! wahaha.. well, anyway.. getting back to my life.. school already started.. haha.. a week ago..lolx... gawd.. math is uber hard.. i hate math.. sooo hate math.. amps.. then came zazi... haha... go figure... i've lost my english somewhere.. just inform me if you have found it... until then bear with my language...haha...
.....i wrote this entry to say i am still here!!!!!!!!!!!!!..... wahoohoo... d na ako marunong magenglish. lol.. anyway, i'm in china right now... i'll tell all the happenings the next time i log in.. hehe.. i'm in a hurry right now...i'm off to kwan la gu, hehe.... xD ciao!
i kinda like YY....lol.....
...go figure...
By: Yel A pensive luck it is To win a glance from you With the sudden pulse of my wrist Surges a profound affection A genuine likeness to touch even a petite portion of your skin I wanted to move. You glide like an angel, whose murmurs Are devoured by a multitude of arcanes Overbearing your divine being. They hindered me from moving. I dared to assuage this overwhelming Force that donned me with uncontrollable hurricanes Twisting within my soul I tried to remain desolate. I once wanted to not move. I once was repulsed to pursue this stale intimacy I am infallibly perpetrated into. Could an angel catch my fall? * To a Junior student who tore my heart apart, but still inspires me to write. Now I know that Angels do fly, and they don’t fall. this, ladies and gentlemen is my poem for that special someone... some of you might have heard of this unfortunate news of mine, but to the others, i am profoundly sorry for i just do not know how to tell you... this is just the downside part of falling deeply in love.. you fall, and fall, and fall... and that's just the end of it... you find it so easy to fall down.. and realizing you've reached rock bottom, you weep. You're just trapped down there with no way out... but why do i still feel melancholic wind within me, although my happy side is greater than my sad side? do you not notice something is different about mayel as you go over this entry? My Hypothetical Requiem
because i am officially appointed as the Editor-in-chief of The Aquinian.
also, i got the chance to watch the Avril concert last night... actually, right now, i have not regained my voice yet... those are my happy side...that's it, ladies and gents..
my dream has finally come true!!! i have a band, and i'm freaking proud to say it's my band!!! wahaha.. of course, since i don't sing in front of people, i'll be playing for them.. i appointed myself to handling the rhythm guitar.. hehehe.. actually this saturday (march 5(atal's bday)) we'll be playing at abok's..i'm not really sure of the name of the studio but i heard ir's something like that.. anyway.... I'M FREAKING EXCITED...
also, scout and i will meet up so i could have the buffy vcd's she burnt for moi... xD.. can't wait to watch those after a long day and all that crap xD
LEMONY SNICKET'S A SERIES OF UNFORTUNATE EVENTS was so awesome!!1 xD i actually watched it by myself last friday.. i've actually had a phobia since that faithful night i watched the stephen chow film (see, i even forgot the title of the film!) .. the guy sat beside me and like had been crawling his hands near my bag which is on my lap... go figure...
i totally love violet baudelier.. asteg.. she's so cute and sunny, the little sister who loves to bite things.. hehe.. the movie was soooo funny!! (well, if not for my fear of having someone beside me again and trying to snatch my bag and harass me in the process...xD) i should have laughed the loudest.. i'm not really a jim carrey fan, actually i don't like him at all because i really think he's an exaggerator..(haha,, what a term!) yun!...
my english teacher gave me a job... a very important job... she asked me to join this essay writing contest about the ramon magsaysay awardees.. i have to choose one and write an essay about that person.. i don't have the theme yet, but whatever it is, i know it's freakingly outrageously formally serious stuff.. hehe.. i dunno if i could handle it.. haha.. but i was really touched by what Mrs. Visorde (my eng teacher) told me that afternoon i was supposed to get the forms for the contest from her..
"Mariel, i truly believe in you."
what more heartwarming words can you hear from a teacher?! she even said she's like exposing me to those kind of stuffs like what she did to Angelo Suarez (Kobe Bryant of Philippine Literature), who actually is my model...!!!.. it's like i'm hearing a translation of "Mariel, i see you as the next Angelo Suarez of UST" (okay, so that was really pensive and a bit impossible??) hehe.. yep,, that's all... oh yeah, AVRIL LAVIGNE AND SIMPLE PLAN are having a concert this march 31.... just hope i get to watch it.. hehe... it's because i'm leaving for hing kong this vacation - meaning from march 25 or something... well... if i don't get to see them here, just hope they'll be in hong kong... *sigh*.... please let that be possible....
**a bit happy mayel**
i just received my tle transmuted grade, and guess what?... i got a fucking, big, crass, stupid 76... i hate tle... i really dunno how that happened.. i am actually one of the best computer tle students since i have a background on html, and i only got 76?!?!?!?!?! that's bullshit.... i apologize for having been saying crass language.. i am just so upset right now... soooo upset...soooo very much upset.... fucking upset....
waahhH!!! i still have to compile my next aquinian issue articles, write my opinion column, and print and encode and die. arrgghh.... i'm totally gasping for breath... i'm totally dying!!! haha... exaj... anyway,,i'm putting up another entry because i dunno watelse to do besides dying for a bunch of schoolworks... filipino and english test this morning... yep,, i passed through it without studying like hell. you don not study for those subjects right?? it's all about the practical applications and stuffs.. chemistry and world history's for tomorrow... can't wait.. to die the second time.. haha, so funny....
btw
i have been texting my gay friend these days... told him/her i'm also having the same dilemma... i dunno... anyway, is sexuality even important?? okay, i'm basically spilling myself out in here.. again, i hope i will not be misjudged(if it's even the correct term) haha... yep, i'm having the "crisis".... can somebody help me please?? heheheehehe.....
Name: Mayel
Age: 15
Date of Birth: 15 years ago
Died: January 24, 2005
Cause of Death: Life
i already told rogelio i'd join them on the post-prom celebration........ i'm gonna pay him 500 bucks.... fucker... i actually don't have 500 bucks yet.. my parents are abroad, and i don't have anyone else to ask for the money... hehe... all the strange things we do for love... i meant, all the unfair things we do for love... xD
i'm out...
it's already exam days and i still have a lot of things to think about...
1. chem, social science, and english tests... i still have to finish reading the novel and at the same time reminisce the events from noli me tangere...
2. find my monologue character... it's an additional freaking english project after the yearbook and the future autobiography... grrrr.... i love english,,, i really do! but all the other stuffs aside from writing and literature is not my thing... i hate it when people see me on stage... i totally suck at those...
3. decide on whether i should join the prom night celebration and pay 500 bucks for the room ( i am not joining the prom, just the "celebration". hehe.. someone promised me we'll drink the night away.. ehehe.. i just hope we won't get caught..) manila hotel is freaking expensive...
4. collect the aquinian's next issue literary pieces... i am to pass it jan.27 and that's four days from now....cram,,, cram,,, and a whole lot of cram...
5. finally,, which is probably the hardest one is to choose my course.. yes, i've been thinking about it although i still have months to decide, and that it's not really necessary to think of it during these circumstances when i am baffled with a whole lot craps...
it bothers me that if i pick journ and graduate and all that stuff, i'd probably be stuck at home after. they say there is truly no money in writing. what if i pick another course and just have summer classes of feature film and screenwriting????? i dunno.... i really do not know.. i don't want to be a nurse. i hate hospitals.. i have this hospital phobia that freaks me whenever i am to go to one.. i barf on internal organs. i totally don't want to work on one especially the liver and the intestines *winces*...
courses i will not ever take simply because i am not worthy of it.
CFAD (fine arts)
engineering (i nearly flunked up on drafting during freshman year)
archi (it's the same thing, right?)
education (being a teacher??? umm...)
music (cmon! i can play the guitar, but i am a closet singer....)
any computer course (nope.... i suck at computers, i guess)
waahhh.. watelse???
i am totally useless
i hate my life.... heh..
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